Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Emotionally Wrung Out

Good and Bad today. :)
It started baddish, I woke up with a painful kink in my neck that's lasted all day. 
However, I got to lay in bed for a few hours, reading. I LOVE reading. :) 
Then, Chris came over with coffee. What a delight! He brightens everything up. :)
When my mom came home from her lunch break, we went a saw a desk we saw on Craigslist. A  no go. Not the quality I want. :p Oh well, the Lord will provide the perfect thing. :) 
We went to the chiropractor and he cranked on my neck & back. It feels so strange, like someones breaking your neck since it crack-crack-cracks. :) It feels a little better and I'm on the road to neck recovery. :) 

Then...drama started.
With the Anchor, the bible study we've started, one of the girls was rude today, then when all three of us got together, Angie* was saying "I tell the truth, how it is, to anybody. It doesn't matter who it is, I tell the truth." about how she was offended because no one told her where we were meeting (Because no one had decided!) I told her, since she would tell anyone the truth, that that day, she had hurt my feelings by being rude to me about not knowing where we were meeting. I guess me telling her she hurt my feelings was too much for her to handle because she stormed off and left almost crying. 
It was very strange. 
I know that the Lord is the author of our college group and if Angie isn't supposed to be in leadership, then she won't be. 
It was very frustrating and emotionally tolling. If we're not able to discuss openly how we all feel, not regarding one person's feelings as more important as the others, then it's not right.

Lord, I ask for Your forgiveness for my part in the negative stuff that happened today. God, will You do your will in this situation? Let hearts be convicted and mended. 

*sigh*
I've been reading "All I Need is Jesus (and a good pair of Jeans)" by Susanna Aughtmon. It's been a blessing!
I love reading :) 
Lord, finish Your work in me. I feel undone. :) I love You
In Jesus' Name
Amen :) 

Monday, June 8, 2009

This is a Beginning

God's providing everything, he's making things happen. This is a beginning. :) 

Chris graduated.
Chris got a job.
Chris moved to Bend.

I have more hours at work.
Im finishing the term.
Im released from the bondage of an old hurt, a poison of unforgiveness.

Today has been a little hard. It shows that even the best things are hard sometimes. But hard doesn't mean that they aren't the very best things to be happening in life.

I can't wait to start my bible study with Karina and get in the word regularly. God will you provide a girl to share the study with us? i have an extra book.  :)
You're good, Lord. 

Help me trust you and help me be gracious. I love you. Remind me that this life is all about you. :)