8 Things

Thankyou Rachel, from the blog "braving the Beauty" for this. It gave me lots to think about. :)

8 things I’m looking forward to:
1. Vacation
2. When God takes me on another mission trip 
3. having my very first pair of birkenstocks
4. Filling up my moleskine with songs
5. Living in Eugene...and Im sure other places, too. 
6. Becoming content
7. Getting married
8. Reaching my goal weight (I know I know) 

8 things I did yesterday:
1. Had my hair dyed by my beautiful sister. 
2. Wrote a mini sermon (but no one came to unlock the church or hear the sermon, so it sits on my dashboard)
3. Made drinks for people at work. 
4.  Had a wonderful time with my sweet boyfriend, running errands and being silly 
5. Pondered at my priorities and asked the Lord to tell me what I should be investing in. 
6. Saw pictures of Brittany's brand new baby girl, Jacee Liliana
7. prayed for a co-worker that God is putting in my life even though Im mad about it.
8. Read parts of  "All I Need is Jesus (and a good pair of jeans)" By Susanna Aughtmon (or something like that) 

8 things I wish I could do:
1. Believe in myself and God's ability and desire to use me. 
2. Play guitar like a face melter and write songs that come from God's heart
3. be set loose in Borders & buy anything I like! (I stole this one from Rachel. :) ) 
4. Go on a 6 week long cross country road trip. 
5. Hike a swiss alp (someday) 
6. Have money to get manicures and pedicures all the time. 
7.  Be fluent in spanish, then lots of other languages too. 
8. Pay off my parents and learn to save really well. :) 

Special!

It's so silly how I compare myself so much.

Is this an 18 year old girl condition or

maybe just a human one?

God is good.

He has made me in His image.

I express a part of Him.

A special part, a unique part. 

No one else can fit the part that I can fit. 

Your grace is enough for me, Lord. 

I've been realizing how "iron sharpens iron" more, today.

I met with Karina and we did our bible study together. 

I love seeing how God shows her things that I didn't 

recognize in His word. It's a blessing to see her use

her God given talent of using words for His glory.

Your grace is enough for us, Lord. 

Thankyou for the promise that You'll work out Your plan for my life,

You'll use the special way I am made to fit in a special place, & be loved

especially by You. Help me remember I'm special, Lord, and help me

reveal to others how they're special, too.

Love you

Rach 

Emotionally Wrung Out

Good and Bad today. :)

It started baddish, I woke up with a painful kink in my neck that's lasted all day. 

However, I got to lay in bed for a few hours, reading. I LOVE reading. :) 

Then, Chris came over with coffee. What a delight! He brightens everything up. :)

When my mom came home from her lunch break, we went a saw a desk we saw on Craigslist. A  no go. Not the quality I want. :p Oh well, the Lord will provide the perfect thing. :) 

We went to the chiropractor and he cranked on my neck & back. It feels so strange, like someones breaking your neck since it crack-crack-cracks. :) It feels a little better and I'm on the road to neck recovery. :) 

Then...drama started.

With the Anchor, the bible study we've started, one of the girls was rude today, then when all three of us got together, Angie* was saying "I tell the truth, how it is, to anybody. It doesn't matter who it is, I tell the truth." about how she was offended because no one told her where we were meeting (Because no one had decided!) I told her, since she would tell anyone the truth, that that day, she had hurt my feelings by being rude to me about not knowing where we were meeting. I guess me telling her she hurt my feelings was too much for her to handle because she stormed off and left almost crying. 

It was very strange. 

I know that the Lord is the author of our college group and if Angie isn't supposed to be in leadership, then she won't be. 

It was very frustrating and emotionally tolling. If we're not able to discuss openly how we all feel, not regarding one person's feelings as more important as the others, then it's not right.

Lord, I ask for Your forgiveness for my part in the negative stuff that happened today. God, will You do your will in this situation? Let hearts be convicted and mended. 

*sigh*

I've been reading "All I Need is Jesus (and a good pair of Jeans)" by Susanna Aughtmon. It's been a blessing!

I love reading :) 

Lord, finish Your work in me. I feel undone. :) I love You

In Jesus' Name

Amen :) 

This is a Beginning

God's providing everything, he's making things happen. This is a beginning. :) 

Chris graduated.

Chris got a job.

Chris moved to Bend.

I have more hours at work.

Im finishing the term.

Im released from the bondage of an old hurt, a poison of unforgiveness.

Today has been a little hard. It shows that even the best things are hard sometimes. But hard doesn't mean that they aren't the very best things to be happening in life.

I can't wait to start my bible study with Karina and get in the word regularly. God will you provide a girl to share the study with us? i have an extra book.  :)

You're good, Lord. 

Help me trust you and help me be gracious. I love you. Remind me that this life is all about you. :) 

Psalm 57

1 Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy on me, 
       for in you my soul takes refuge. 
       I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings 
       until the disaster has passed.

 ² I cry out to God Most High, 
       to God, who fulfills {his purpose} for me.

 ³ He sends from heaven and saves me, 
       rebuking those who hotly pursue me; 
       Selah 
       God sends his love and his faithfulness.

 ⁴ I am in the midst of lions; 
       I lie among ravenous beasts— 
       men whose teeth are spears and arrows, 
       whose tongues are sharp swords.

 ⁵ Be exalted, O God, above the heavens; 
       let your glory be over all the earth.

 ⁶ They spread a net for my feet— 
       I was bowed down in distress. 
       They dug a pit in my path— 
       but they have fallen into it themselves. 
       Selah

 ⁷ My heart is steadfast, O God, 
       my heart is steadfast; 
       I will sing and make music.

 ⁸ Awake, my soul! 
       Awake, harp and lyre! 
       I will awaken the dawn.

 ⁹ I will praise you, O Lord, among the nations; 
       I will sing of you among the peoples.

 ¹⁰ For great is your love, reaching to the heavens; 
       your faithfulness reaches to the skies.

 ¹¹ Be exalted, O God, above the heavens; 
       let your glory be over all the earth.

Days of Trust

Romans 15:13

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

I'm trusting the Lord again today. I found what I think is the perfect car. But my parents only can pay 800 less than they're offering it for. They love the Lord and know Ian & Kristy...maybe it's the Lord's will and will bless both of us out of this deal. Your will be done, God.  :/ I need to not worry.

Promise

Psalm 100:3, 5

 ³ Know that the LORD is God. 
       It is he who made us, and we are his\
       we are his people, the sheep of his pasture

 ⁵ For the LORD is good and his love endures forever; 
       his faithfulness continues through all generations.